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One of my goals for 2022 is to find and achieve inner peace. As we head towards the half-way mark I am pretty pleased with where I am. I think the world we are currently living in makes it extremely hard for everyone, and when I think back to where I was last Autumn I’ve come along way. It’s still very much work in progress, but I am a lot less self-critical, I try not to worry about things that are out of my control and I’ve allowed myself to let go of some of some of the sadness that has been holding me back for so long. I am coming to terms with the bereavement of losing my parents, and allowing the happy memories to come back in. I have rediscovered a spark inside me, which is probably most noticeable with my renewed passion and enthusiasm for the fundraising. Perhaps where I still would like to improve is when it comes to seizing opportunities and living for the moment. I’ve always suffered from the fear of rejection and that does seem to stop me from just going for things. Hopefully I can work on that during the remainder of 2022.

So here is my latest creation based on the poppy logo of The Alarm. I’ve heat pressed the poppies onto the jacket, and it is my intention to wear it out at a certain event in a few weeks time and who knows where else. I actually have done a matching tie. Tonight just to test it out I wore my Rebellious Hope t-shirt underneath it. I am not exactly a fashion or style icon, so I really have no idea if this is an ok look or a total disaster. Would you run a mile? 😆 I’ll admit that my self-confidence has taken a battering in recent years and sadness and loneliness have been quick to grab hold of me. However, I am aware of this and I am determined to get myself out and about a little more. I’ve made so many new friends, especially in the bowel cancer community, so I hope that I can get to meet a few of you over the coming months.

This is a rather weird week with the double bank holiday coming at the end of the week. Nice to have some time out from work. I’ve not got anything special planned to mark the Jubilee. Perhaps one day over the holiday I might recount my participation and experience of the Silver Jubilee in 1977 x