rivers2cross

I have never felt comfortable being on the receiving end of compliments, especially when it comes to my physical appearance. However, this is one of the things that I have been working on over the last 12 months. Recently, I have had a few people comment on how well I am looking, which is very kind and is a boost to my self-esteem. To be fair I am feeling good about myself at the moment.

There could be a number of reasons for this. Firstly I am much more at peace with myself these days. Things that once would have made me feel very anxious are not having the same impact. The medical investigations are a prime example of this. Hopefully, neither the mole on my lip or the lump close to my testicles are anything sinister, but a year ago I would have been worrying and overthinking all scenarios.

Another reason is I am pretty physically active at the moment. The dog walking has been upped in preparation for North Wales next weekend and I am probably losing a couple of pounds in the process. I would love to get back into doing a bit more fitness training, but I am not putting myself under any pressure and if it happens great but if not well that’s all fine too.

I have also made a minor change to my clothing wardrobe. At work I am resting the polo shirts and gone to wearing soft-spun t-shirts. Usually with t-shirts I prefer a slightly baggy XL size, but I am going for large at the moment which probably look a better fit on me. I have also stopped wearing my work trousers over the summer and when not in shorts I am wearing some really comfortable Primark trousers which once again look better on me.

Even the fundraising album, A New Dawn, which is coming out next Friday is not causing me any anxiety. Of course, I would love it to raise as much money for the three cancer charities as possible, and I am working hard on the promotion. However, I am not putting myself under any pressure. I think it’s a great album and I hope as many people as possible get to hear and hopefully like it.

So I feel both mentally and physically stronger at the moment. I feel very blessed and grateful to be on this current path I’m on. Add in a dose of inner peace and I think it is being reflected on my outward appearance x