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It’s seems unbelievable that today marks the 10th anniversary of losing dad. June 15th 2009 is a day when everything changed… Some days it feels like yesterday and some days like forever… Today is a time for reflection x
I always genuinely believed that dad had at least another 10 years in him. He was still working with me everyday as he neared his 82nd birthday. Then after a very short illness of pneumonia and sepsis he died – it was a terrible week.
Naturally I want Dad to be looking down on me from somewhere and be proud of what I have achieved in the last 10 years. The fact that John Darvell Packaging Ltd has survived and continues is quite an achievement – his large presence remains at work as his writing on labels etc is still everywhere. I’ve published three bowel cancer fundraising books – I wonder what he would have thought of that… I mustn’t forget Storm and Prince, who I think he would have enjoyed seeing, although persuading him to have them at work every day might have been tricky… Dad enjoyed along long and very happy life and a loving marriage with Mum for 49 years. I’m glad that he never lived to see Mum going through bowel cancer. He would be so pleased how the family has stayed tight and are there for each other – and the fact that in recent years we have managed to re-engage with our cousins on his side of the family.
It has always been a regret that neither dad nor mum got to see me settle down and get married. I wish that was something that would happen, but it’s something I haven’t had much success at, and I continue to struggle. However, I’ve not given up just yet even if the odds are beginning to stack up against me. Maybe now is the time to have another push at it…
I wish I had more clear and vivid memories of him. I think with both my parents I have shut off lots of this somewhere as part of the bereavement and coping mechanism. Perhaps I should try and look at ways to unlocking that.
Life is good though. I wish I was a little better at living for the moment and just going for it! I miss him Dad hugely and that will never change, so onwards and upwards and cheers Dad xx
