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Aside from taking the massive first step a few months ago and admitting that I had mental issues in the form of depression and anxiety, the first challenge I faced was whether or not to take anti-depressants. This wasn’t an easy decision and I’ll admit I had thoughts of meaning me being a failure, especially because I was in such a low place. The first week on Sertraline was very difficult, which I know is common for people and I was so close to giving up on them. I felt detached, had an upset stomach and couldn’t see that as a way to live my life. However, I knew that I had to give it a chance and so I carried on and thankfully into the second week the side effects calmed down. Sertraline has been an important crutch helping to re-balance me. Alongside the CBT sessions I am feeling more like a normal human being for the first time in such a long time. Don’t get me wrong this is only the start, and I know I have a long way to go and lots of work still do on myself. But also I am celebrating these foundations and building blocks that I have laid for myself. I said to a friend that I should have done this years ago, and most wisely they replied that I could have not should have x

The Gift-A-Bears in hoodies arrived today and they look amazing. The first orders have been printed already and will go out this week. There are four bears available, Buddy, Cuddles, Honey and Trooper. You can also choose which charity you would like the profits from your purchase donated to. These bears would make a lovely gift for anyone, child or adult, or any place like a hospice or children’s ward or indeed for an event or celebration. The options are endless. To order click on the link https://rivers2cross.com/product/gift-a-bear/

A cracking beer mat arrived in the post today from DJ Richard Latto who hosts Stereo Underground every Saturday night on BBC Sounds. I had my request read out for The Vapours last week, so he sent me this in the post. Happy days…

A farcical disaster at work this afternoon. I was reversing the forklift out of the unit and heard a bang and thought something had gone badly wrong with the forklift, as it looked like a big oil spray too… Ummmmm it turned out a car paint spray can had fallen underneath the forklift and I reversed over it! Not oil but blue paint which has left its mark on the unit floor, a fair few boxes, and on my face 🤣

Tonight I have got the record player on and I’m listening to The Charlatans. Having a night off the television, which is just a little tweak but once again a bit of self-care, as was cleaning the bathroom… Perhaps not! All in all I really good day. Until tomorrow x