rivers2cross

I thought seeing this L-Plate while walking Prince this morning was almost deliberately put in front of me for a reason. Maybe my folks are at work… Tomorrow I celebrate my birthday, or at my age I’m not sure celebrate is the right word! 😅 Seriously though, I am more than ever aware of what a privilege it is simply to live each and every day, something that cancer deprives too many of doing. The last 12 months have been such a rollercoaster for me. The fundraising and the achievements continue to blow me away, as does the quite amazing kindness of people who have supported my various endeavours. I always say that without this support I would achieve nothing. On the flip side I’ve also had to accept and seek help for anxiety and depression. I finally decided that I didn’t want to keep putting up with feeling the way I was, and to try and do something about it. Thankfully I feel so much better and am working hard to keep things that way. Birthdays for me can be a triggering event, as in amongst the happiness I can feel particularly lonely too, as it can remind me that I am single and the folks never got to see me happy and settled. This year I have the tools and stability to avoid that trigger, and I certainly won’t be putting myself under pressure in terms of must meet someone etc. Of course it would be lovely if it happens, but I have plenty of love around me ♥ So what I am really hoping to continue to do over the next year is keep working at finding inner peace, being kind, and to start living life x So yes I am still very much a learner driver in this respect…

The weather has been pretty rubbish today! No dog park and not much chance of doing much outside apart getting soaked… Until tomorrow x