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Today I managed to combine a work delivery with a visit to my sister in the Cotswolds. We haven’t been able to get together since before Christmas, so I actually got some presents from them. A little weird opening festive gifts at the end of January, but very nice of course 😊

One of the presents was this gorgeous Peace Pillow and Atmosphere Mist from https://elysianbotanicals.co.uk I am hoping that it will help me get a peaceful night’s sleep. I have been plagued by weird dreams for a couple of years… Elysian Botanicals is a small family run business in Northumberland and definitely worth checking out and supporting if you can.

Today I was thinking about over-thinking! 😅 Seriously though, this has been a major issue for me, and has led to many downward mental health episodes over the years. Over the last couple of weeks everything has been amazing. The Gift-A-Bears have been well received, and getting my charity song played on the BBC was amazing. However, this can also lead to my classic over-thinking. For instance, I might wonder if I am overdoing the social media postings and chasing the next sale. I then will look for reassurance… There will always be lovely people who will tell me to carry on with the good work, but are they just being kind… I also imagine that anyone who does think I am overdoing it will probably not say anything to avoid possibly upsetting me. So I am almost making sure that one way or another I am setting myself up for a fall. With the Sertraline that I am now taking and the CBT sessions, I am working really hard at changing my mindset, so in this particular scenario I haven’t fallen into this trap and that is real progress for me… I hope that all makes sense… Oh and I posted out another teddy bear today, which means I am bang up to date with the orders, so yes shall I try and chase that next sale??? 🤣

Rather late home tonight, so a microwave meal followed by chocolate cake. My third different cake of the day! This is not the norm I promise 🤣 So I am listening to some music before retiring to bed to try out my Peace Mist. Until tomorrow x