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There is very little about the cold that I like. Give me a heatwave any day! This cold snap, especially after such a mild Autumn, feels brutal. I am not looking forward to the week ahead at work in my freezing unit. However, today everywhere I look there are spectacular icicles. It’s almost like Halloween with all the ghostly spider webs. I think it’s important to keep appreciating all the beauty on our doorsteps.
I have been back on the Sertraline for just over a week now and there’s no doubt that I am returning back closer to being and feeling like the person I was just a couple of months ago. Thankfully, I started to feel the benefits of the anti-depressants within a couple of days and I’m already feeling much more balanced and the highs and lows have plateaued out. Overthinking has also reduced although it is still there. I’ve been managing to get to bed a little earlier, not spend so much time on my phone, and reduce the fundraising posts.
I always find it difficult to pull back from the fundraising, but especially at this time of year when the potential for sales is at its highest. I can’t but help think about how to raise funds and as a result I am unable to switch off. However, I’ve pushed the fundraising really hard during 2022 and it’s been really enjoyable and rewarding for me. I could not have predicted that the music and the teddy bears would have raised around £5000 this year, so I there is no need for me to try and push myself or the fundraising hard as the festive season begins. I’m also acutely aware that behind some of the fundraising this year there has been pain and heartbreak. I am going to write about more in a future post, but Deborah and Monique, recently lost to bowel cancer, had a profound affect on me. Of course, the sadness that also comes with the community, has to impact on me to some degree too, so acknowledging that and looking out for myself has to play a bigger part moving forwards…
However, there’s no way I am going to stop fundraising, and every time the community loses someone I am reminded about the importance of fundraising and of course raising awareness about bowel cancer, so you can’t completely get rid of my spam posts! I am going to try and pace myself a little better in the new year and be a bit more kind to myself, so that I don’t lose the passion and drive that is still very much there. Also, perhaps raising awareness will be more high profile from me, as that literally can save lives.
The friendship and support for not just the fundraising but to me personally means the absolute world to me. Even in the last 24 hours I’ve received some lovely comments and I am grateful for all of them and take them on board. Thank you everyone xx
I am trying to focus and be so grateful that I have good health and have little to complain about in my life. I have so many amazing friends who are going through so much worse than me, so I try to keep a sense of perspective. I hope everyone has had a lovely weekend and stay sage and warm x
